Former Navy SEAL Shawn Ryan reveals how chasing adrenaline through elite military service, CIA contracting, and drug networks in Colombia led to spiritual crisis—and how a catastrophic ibogaine experience opened him to demonic oppression, exorcisms, and a battle for his soul that's reshaping his entire life and podcast mission around faith. Elite operators experience severe post-service depression because civilian life cannot replicate the neurological highs of combat, leading many toward addiction and dangerous risk-seeking behavior.